Friday, September 30, 2011
Saturday, September 24, 2011
Happiness? Are you There? It's me Brittney
What is Happiness?
I have an obsession with happiness, I am constantly trying to make myself more aware of it, to better understand what it really is. It's fleeting to say the least. Here one minute gone the next, but is it really? As human beings we are always looking for the next big thing, the next high, the next rush etc. Once we find it we need to move on to bigger things. Happiness is like that. Once we find happiness we become too comfortable: we take that feeling for granted and soon we no longer think we're happy. Not because anything has change but because nothing has changed, the stalemate in our moments allows us to lose sight of happiness.
This is part of the reason I like staying busy. In every moment there is something new to enjoy, whether it be bungee jumping, or going for dinner with a new friend, or catching up with an old friend, or having a romping good sac session. Happiness can be found every where as long as you allow it to enter you. Now I feel like I need to add something else to this idea. You expect Happiness to come to you. You cannot say I am going to sit in bed until Happiness find me. NO! what the hell are you thinking?! When has Happiness ever been found laying bed. (aside from as i said earlier a romping good sac session) Happiness comes from living life, engaging with the people around you and new people. It comes from learning new things, taking pride in your job whatever it may be, it comes from doing the things you want to do. If you want to go to Europe then make a plan and make it happen, if you want to go for a walk then lace up your shoes and get going. Grandeur does not matter when dealing with Happiness its simply about living your life and finding your peace. Peace now thats a new word I think I should look into some more.
I have an obsession with happiness, I am constantly trying to make myself more aware of it, to better understand what it really is. It's fleeting to say the least. Here one minute gone the next, but is it really? As human beings we are always looking for the next big thing, the next high, the next rush etc. Once we find it we need to move on to bigger things. Happiness is like that. Once we find happiness we become too comfortable: we take that feeling for granted and soon we no longer think we're happy. Not because anything has change but because nothing has changed, the stalemate in our moments allows us to lose sight of happiness.
This is part of the reason I like staying busy. In every moment there is something new to enjoy, whether it be bungee jumping, or going for dinner with a new friend, or catching up with an old friend, or having a romping good sac session. Happiness can be found every where as long as you allow it to enter you. Now I feel like I need to add something else to this idea. You expect Happiness to come to you. You cannot say I am going to sit in bed until Happiness find me. NO! what the hell are you thinking?! When has Happiness ever been found laying bed. (aside from as i said earlier a romping good sac session) Happiness comes from living life, engaging with the people around you and new people. It comes from learning new things, taking pride in your job whatever it may be, it comes from doing the things you want to do. If you want to go to Europe then make a plan and make it happen, if you want to go for a walk then lace up your shoes and get going. Grandeur does not matter when dealing with Happiness its simply about living your life and finding your peace. Peace now thats a new word I think I should look into some more.
Wednesday, September 21, 2011
Management
Busyness breeds organization. This is the idea that I'm playing with in my life right now. I work two jobs go to school, do homework, help out around home, see friends, and spend time with the boyfriend. I think I'm doing pretty good, I have more list than is probably necessary and/or healthy, but I'm hoping all this list making will pay off. Help with time and money management is the key here. Money management now that's the big one. How to i find the money to pay for m car, pay insurance, pay my visa, pay my bridge tolls, gas, cell , and still go out and occasionally buy something to make myself feel pretty.
Well here the plan. I sell the swift, put that money on the honda. House sit, put that money on the honda. Sell my Tiffany necklace that Rob got me, put that on the honda and sell the promise bow ring he got me and put that on the honda. These funds should take a good chunk out of what I have to pay on it. The less i have to pay on that thing the more I can spend on you know having a life.
I do feel some sort of reluctance towards selling the jewelery rob gave me. I mean it is Tiffany's but really I am never going to wear it again. Then there's this other part of me that says when I'm older maybe I'll want that stuff, to say you know this guy I was seeing got me this. But really I will never wear any of it, I need the money. I feel it does have sentimental value to me, not because I still hold onto feelings for him but because their part of my past. Their part of my story, my journey and what will eventually lead me to where I'm supposed to be. Who I'm supposed to be with. But whether or not I physically own them, I know will know what brought me to that point. I know I should sell them, I have no use for them , and someone else might get enjoyment from them. But its Tiffany's! I need new Tiffany's
On a completely unrelated note check this out:
http://www.metro.co.uk/weird/876039-man-claims-140-year-old-photo-proves-nicolas-cage-is-a-vampire
Well here the plan. I sell the swift, put that money on the honda. House sit, put that money on the honda. Sell my Tiffany necklace that Rob got me, put that on the honda and sell the promise bow ring he got me and put that on the honda. These funds should take a good chunk out of what I have to pay on it. The less i have to pay on that thing the more I can spend on you know having a life.
I do feel some sort of reluctance towards selling the jewelery rob gave me. I mean it is Tiffany's but really I am never going to wear it again. Then there's this other part of me that says when I'm older maybe I'll want that stuff, to say you know this guy I was seeing got me this. But really I will never wear any of it, I need the money. I feel it does have sentimental value to me, not because I still hold onto feelings for him but because their part of my past. Their part of my story, my journey and what will eventually lead me to where I'm supposed to be. Who I'm supposed to be with. But whether or not I physically own them, I know will know what brought me to that point. I know I should sell them, I have no use for them , and someone else might get enjoyment from them. But its Tiffany's! I need new Tiffany's
On a completely unrelated note check this out:
http://www.metro.co.uk/weird/876039-man-claims-140-year-old-photo-proves-nicolas-cage-is-a-vampire
Thursday, September 15, 2011
:)
So today has been an excellent day. I went to school and then came home and made myself some baked potato soup and a cappuucino. As the rain came down I sat on the couch watching TV enjoying my delicious soup. It is a good day and I feel completely content. Life is good.
This week Ive spent a lot of time with Korey which of course im sure has something to do with my ridiculously good mood. I really really like this guy. Things just seem to fit. I think I've lost most of my reservations about him. He's so sweet and attentive and not to mention he's sexy as hell. This is a guy that could really end up hurting me i suppose.
This week Ive spent a lot of time with Korey which of course im sure has something to do with my ridiculously good mood. I really really like this guy. Things just seem to fit. I think I've lost most of my reservations about him. He's so sweet and attentive and not to mention he's sexy as hell. This is a guy that could really end up hurting me i suppose.
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