Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Art of Being Brittney

So for all you.. no one who follow my blog I have decided to fill you in on the hard work and the art of being me.
!: most importantly if you are going to be Brittney Hougaard you must try to maintain a postive outlook at all times. For instance your best friend is shitting on you, your ex is with-holding your shit and you have like a shit ton of homework to do and no free time. Well too the fuck bad you smile god damn you. This a relatively new step to being Brittney. One that came about one day as I sat on the couch crying to my mom about how sad I was. She looked at me and said sometimes you just have to fake it until you make it. So I did and I am. I faked it until I made it. She also mentioned something about the importance of reinventing yourself from time to time, this does not mean you change who you are, that will always stay the same. It simply means if you want to be one of those people who is happy all the time and just generally positive then be that way. So I did. Therefore while this may be a new step it is definitely the most important. The reason for this is if you are sad what good does that do you? if you're mad who does that hurt? No one but yourself thats who. and being sad is only going to further drag down your mood. Therefore Happiness is a key part of the Art of Being Brittney.
2: Hair. Anyone who knows me knows that there is one thing that I love about me and that is my hair. Granted this may sound self centred but who the fuck cares I love my hair. I admit sometimes I would love to just shave it off but the truth is I would cry my eyes out and mourn my luscious locks for a long ass time. :) They key is a good blow out. Round brush that shit! On days when the blow out is not being felt you curl. Curled hair is not only exceptionally sexy it is also a good way to make yourself feel gorgeous. Plus it adds volume making your hair appear super thick and who doesnt want thick hair. The color of your hair does not really matter all that matters is the style. Also important do not let your hair just lay flat on your back or even worse directly over your chest like a beard. No the hair must be brought to the front and left to hang on the sides think armpit area, but please ladies we do not want hair that smells like gym socks. Figure your shit out. The hair should act as a beautiful frame for your boobs <3
3:Body Language. Now this step may sound similar to step one in that the idea is to come off as a positive open minded person but trust me it is entirely different. Do not sit with your arms crossed scowling at the world. Instead you should always have shoulders back arms to the side resting easily on your lap anywhere but directly in front of you creating a arm wall between you and the rest of the world. Lets face it no one wants to walk up to someone and start a conversation if you dont look approachable. Generally what this says (the open body language) is hey Im a nice person open to new experiences and people.
4: Know who you are. Brittney knows who she is and you can tell by the way she carries herself. I will not stoop down to anyones level because that's not who I am. If you are true to who you are as a person eventually everything will work out the way its suppose to. If you're pretending to be someone you're not you're gonna get stuck with someone elses life. It is fixable in my belief but it will take longer.
5: Honesty. BE HONEST. To yourself, to family, to friends, to strangers, everyone. If you have feelings for a guy tell him. If you do whats the worst that can happen? he says he doesnt feel the same? so what what, if thats what happens then it obviously wasnt meant to be. Sure it'll be embarrassing for about a minute but in the end you were honest with yourself and with him, in the end only positive things will happen if you are honest. IMPORTANT: do not use honesty as an excuse to be mean. When I say be honest I dont mean tell some guy whos into you uh not in a million years because you're kind of a loser. Remember the point of honesty is to breed positivity, being mean will never bring you positivity or anyone else.
6: Kindness. Try to be nice to everyone, this is sometimes easier said than done but never the less it is important.

Remember the point of these steps is to bring positivity to life (maybe with the exception of the hair thing thats not gonna do much more than make you feel super awesome) therefore if you find a situation where the steps will not bring positivity tweak it. Remember life is yours to create this is just what I have created some self rules that I believe will bring me happiness and positive experiences in the future and present and it may even put the past in a more positive light.
Last but not least;
BE BRAVE, LOVE LIFE

Monday, March 21, 2011

Smile

So Im at work here, exhausted because I did not sleep well last night. So frusterated.
Anyway despite my frusteration I am still trying to remain positive, fake it until you make it. You smile enough and eventually the smile becomes real. Even though right now i am extremely frusterated I still feel light and happy. So I'll hold on to that

Sunday, March 20, 2011

Umbrellas

Friends are good for a lot of things, they are there for you when your heart is breaking, they build you up when you're feeling less than fabulous and they are great for a good time. However, one thing that is seldom mentioned in the "why friends rock" hand book is the fact that sometimes friends can be the most hurtful people of all.
You look at them as an umbrella to shield you from the shit storm that is life and you do the same for them. So when these people, these umbrellas starting dumping on you, for no apparent reason it is shocking, and hurtful. There will always be the occasional drop that falls from the edges of the umbrella, that may land on your skin but you know the umbrella doesn't mean to be hurtful so those drops roll off. Sometimes, however the umbrella just decides to fold up, its had enough and the shit storm that rains down truly sinks in. The hurt caused from that umbrella hurts more than anything else can. You know it'll all work out and so you decide to keep the umbrella that is you, up in hopes that the umbrella that is them will reopen itself.
Here's to silent battles, that will never be won between umbrellas that will in the end always stay open.

Thursday, March 17, 2011

Content

So I was driving home tonight, and as i was driving the thought occurred to me that I am super happy. There was no weight on my chest no worry on the back of my mind, just a good happy feeling.
Why do I forget what happy feels like? was it love that blinded me? Do I think if I have love I dont need anything else? To be honest in that last ridiculousness during my relationship with Rob I actual remember brief acknowledgment of my unhappiness, but then saying to myself no your not and even if you are this will pass it will get better. And it did I lost the weight on my chest, I lost the worry in the back of mind and let myself finally relax. You don't realize till you get out how miserable you are. I feel free finally.

Monday, March 14, 2011

Time

So as I carry on my new path in life, i decided that I was ready to date. I know what you're thinking, Its only been a month, too soon. Not true. In my heart I feel like we never really got back together. So here I am at this new point in my life and for the first time in a long time I went on a first date. His name was Jamie Koch, we met on plenty of fish, and he was a dud. ... Who cares! I had a fun night out with someone new, and thats excellent!
So with this new experience under my belt, I went on another date, two days later. His name is Chad Cornford. I had an amazing time. The timing may seem completely wrong to all you out in cyber land but who cares. If we spend our lives waiting around for "the right time" for enough time to have passed or anything stupid like that then we are simply wasting time! I had feelings for Chad before I got back with Rob. My reasoning had been that I had a lot more invested in Rob so I owed it to myself to give it one more try. Well I gave it that try and now I think I owe it to myself to make out with the fiercly hot, exceptionally sweet gorilla man!
Life is not about discovering the right time, stumbling upon it. Its about making the right time now. Who knows what tomorrow will hold, or any aspect of the future but right now at this time, life is good.

Sunday, March 6, 2011

Nightmare

Okay so I had a really weird dream last night.

I was in a play and everyone I knew was there. I remember between scenes I was waiting backstage sitting on the ground waiting to be able to go out. I was calm I was happy. Then this guy came up to me and put his hand on my shoulder. He looked like rob but in my dream he wasn't rob I didn't know him at all but now when I think back on the dream and the mystery man that's who he looked like. Anyway as this man got closer and closer I started to become wrapped up in something I dont know what it was, the curtain, cellofane i dont know but I couldnt move. I tried screaming because I was scared of him, i knew he wanted to hurt me. I tried kicking and screaming but my legs were wrapped up my arms were wrapped up and I couldnt make more than a slight groan. It was terrifying, i felt so helpless. I started moving around on the floor trying to get my legs free but it wouldnt work I knew everyone i knew was just beyond the wall and if only they could hear me they would help so i tried to move closer to the wall, maybe try and kick it with m y legs. The whole time this guyy was just hovering over me, he wasnt hurting me or anything but I knew he was going to. It was very ominous. Anyway i could tell he was just about to really hurt me so i swung my legs really hard to hit the wall so someone would come save me and just at that moment I woke up. I guess it doesnt take a master dream analysis to realize the hidden meaning behind that dream