Once a romance has ended friends and family like to chime in with all sorts of helpful advice and condolences. My past break ups have all had one particular condolence/concern in common: you were kind of out his league. Adam Salter and Rob Grant (Razz doesnt even get counted it was too short) after the heart ache of the break up subsided almost everyone I knew, and people I didn't know would come up to me and say " yea I could never figure out why you were with him, you're so much better looking." Now I'll admit Adam Salter I can see that being true, but I guess at the time infatuation blinded me, but Rob well that's one I dont get. To this day I still think him to be an attractive guy, but again I did spend over 2 years with the guy so I'm guessing there are some rose colored glasses involved where that is concerned.
Now the purpose of this entry is not to look at the past, but rather at the future. You see my issue is that as I've been "on the prow" I have been feeling very shallow. I am always thinking "is he good enough looking for me?" I don't want to date another guy where people think "she can do so much better." But here's the thing, why does it matter? Why should I care if someone I dont know thinks I can do better, the fact of the matter is I just want to find someone who makes me happy. The curse here today is not perfume (as i may have mentioned before as being the relationship curse gift) but it is the whole concept of being shallow. Be and let be.
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