Burning Pile

All my troubles on a burning pile, all lit up and I start to smile....

For some reason or another Burning Pile by Mother Mother has been in my head all day long. As I lay her in bed I think to myself: what would I put on my burning pile?
1. My hurt feelings from the break up with rob. If I could just let go of the remembrance of that pain it would be a lot easier to move forward with the relationship. I would love to be able to throw my whole self into it but unfortunately I can feel something -or myself rather- holding me back.
2. Pet Peeves. why do I need them, why do I hold onto them? I would throw away all the things that bother me so that I could just let it go.
3. Uncertainty. that voice in my head that always has to feel unsure of every situation. Yes it is true that Uncertainty has gotten a lot quieter in recent months but I would love it gone for good.

So I guess my burning pile wouldn't exactly be a raging bonfire but perhaps a substantial campfire. The kind the cook up the best hot dogs and roast the best s'mores. I think that may be a good thing though, bonfires have a tendency to rage out of control and consume more than you wanted them to. Campfires on the other hand burn up what you want (wood, paper, the cereal box you tossed in there after breakfast) and leave you feeling warm and satiated, versus way too hot and kind of nervous.
I think when we have too many combustables in our life, things we want to set on fire, well then it starts looking like we want to just burn up life. Sure you could write a list as long as Andre the giant's arm of things you would like to burn but after the list is written the problems won't be gone and you're not going to feel any better. Those angers and frustrations will only breed new ones and those will breed even more. The cycle will continue until you are a sore and bitter person weighed down by a list of things you wish you could burn but can't.
Granted "Burning Pile" is an excellent song, filled with catchy phrases accented by an upbeat catchy beat but I think the idea of throwing your troubles onto a burning pile may be overrated. To throw our troubles on a burning pile would not help us deal with them, and after those had turned to ash new troubles would arise. In the end I think life is too short to dwell on the things we wish we could burn instead maybe we should be making list of things we burn for.

1. My family: Brody, Tawney, Mom and Dad
2. My friends: Alison, Jimmy, Katherine, Tara, and Erica
3. My wonderful boyfriend: Robert
4. Last but certainly not least I burn for me