Hypocrisy

So here it, I wrote recently that I had developed a love for a certain song by Edward Sharpe & the Magnetic Zeros by the name of 'Home.' The lyrics go something like this. "Home, let me go home, home is wherever with you. Home, let me go home, home is when I'm alone with you." This is how i feel when I look at Rob, I can't help it despite my best efforts. He is home, my heart, maybe even my soul -if there is such a thing- recognizes him as the place where I can rest. It's not as dramatic as fireworks that fill the room with their blinding luminescence, it's much subtler than that. What I can compare it to is cookie dough. I am dough, a ball of unshaped, delicious dough. I start out relatively solid but put me in the oven and i just melt. Like those Pillsbury commercials, when the cookie dough laying so innocently on the pan just magically melts into ooey gooey goodness. That's what "Home" feels like. cookie dough melting into ooey gooey goodness.
So what's the problem right? I've spent so much time, and effort building this new life for myself. I made new cookie dough. I got myself some new friends whom I love more than anything, I've connected with my family on a deeper level and I've gotten to know myself so much better. My only worry is that if I let myself melt, then I will lose all resemblence to the cookie dough I have become. What if my future cookie self doesn't turn out quite right, what if I let myself melt and end up getting burnt again?
I trust in God and his plan for "cookie me," I just can't help but have questions. After all I am only human. What I'm going to try to focus on is the fact that whatever is supposed to happen, will happen, and in the end everything will be okay. In the mean time (while I'm very morbidly waiting for the end :P) I intend to focus on myself still, continue on my journey to discovering my true self and also discovering what makes me happy and who makes me happy. That means keeping my friends close. I think Katherine and Katlin may have something right there. They very much have their own lives apart from each other, even though they live together. That is what I want. I want my own life, my own friends, and my own experiences.
Thank you god for answering my petition, and thank you to all who signed it dead and alive .<3